you can wear this
(or ‘death metal is a god you can wear when you gotta disappear’,
after “Fuck this Life” by Young and in the Way)
(a houston band yells ‘giveup’ into 40 teenage facesgiveup.
a houston kid gets a neck tattoo and regrets it halfway throughgiveup.
a houston dad fires a round up into the July 4th fireworks and slurs
‘it’s ok probably keeps going up’giveup.
i vomit on my catholic school shirt and wanna diegiveup. there is no god
you can wear this instead:
((here, you can wear this new god:
i write ‘god’ and then the bullet slows and hangs in the Houston air like a Xanax angel kinda reaching up to heaven but also kinda turning back and looking down at our soft heads as if I called its name, as if i wrote ‘my friend Mikey.’
(((and you can wear:
‘giveup’ isn’t god’s real first name but hell it’s a lot closer than ‘god’
easier than lighting off these firecrackers in the kitchen sink
yelling ‘giveup’ eight and a half times
((((you can wear:
‘give’ & ‘up’ like earrings.
you can die slow in your sunday best.
(((((you can: hurl
bullet or a
butterfly knife or a
pill or a
wine cooler or
these are all
ways to say
((((((or, ‘you can wear this:’
its ok– you can shoot sleeves into this dark night and keep goin’ up.
you can wear all black and go away for good.
you can giveup yeah be a ghost with us.
you can set your clothes on fire
and then wear them.
you can listen to death metal music.
– Bill Moran